This is difficult... I feel a pain in my chest... a friend of mine was saying good bye.. She has been trying to reach out to me but I just havent done the same.... I love her to death and I am really an idiot for letting things end this way, but before this happened we just didn't connect at all, when we talked I felt like I was talking to a friend of a distand friend of a friend... I knew her but she didnt let me in... I did not try hard enough but last years I have been changing alot... we both have, both been evolving, "blossoming" and just changing. I have never lost a real friend before... it hurts, but I dont know if this should or should not happen. its stupid if it does but it is happening.

anyway... I am Sorry, really sorry for not trying hard enough, I love you babe..